I came across the quote that “positive things happen to positive people”. It makes sense. When you’re in a positive state of mind, you see the good in everything within and around you. When good things happen, you embrace it. Whereas the same ‘good thing’ can happen while you’re in a more negative state of mind and it may not be interpreted as fulfilling, exciting, awesome, you name it. I had to stay away from myown room for a while longer tonight, it was for my own good. I ended up walking around the Zinc Hall area and singing a lot. I sat on the curb for a while looking up into the stars, trees, and moon. There’s beauty laid out across the sky all the time. I think it’s so neat that we can look up at the moon so clearly, that we can see another part of this universe from here, that we have a natural light at night as well as during the day. It makes me think of the view from the moon and from other planets & areas of the universe. This world alone is so beautiful with all the sources of water, oceans, rivers, creeks, trees, flowers, plants, woods, waterfalls, mountains, hills, desert, sand dunes, grass, dirt, list goes on. But imagine the reality of the beauty beyond what we can see here. It amazes me. The size, just wow. How? How can existence be so endless in all directions? If it does end at some point, what’s beyond it? Comparing the size of all existence to the size of my brain comforts me in the fact that I can not fully grasp the reality of the universe. Nature is beautiful.

As I sat there tonight looking up at the sky, I started singing about how I long for what I need. I don’t want to focus on the artificial light, I prefer the light of the stars to enter my heart. How I’m ready to shine like the moon in the sky. This led me to singing out to whoever my future love is. Singing out things like hey sweetie, do you feel lonely? I know you’re waiting for me. I’m waiting for you as well. I love you. I’m thinking about you. I wonder how you’re doing. We probably haven’t met yet but that’s okay. Make sure to get through each day. Be with me. I was joyful singing all of this as if I were really singing out to him, which I was. He just can’t hear me from wherever he is, obviously. Unless he’s some creeper in the bushes, preferably not. But yeah. This positive change within my heart led me to seeing a shooting star in the sky. I made a wonderful wish.

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